:)

2011-10-13T18:19:00.004+08:00

Wow, lol I have not been to blogger for a long, long time and hey it changed.

2011-04-28T20:59:00.002+08:00

Such a love-hate thing, too bad it ended up with too much hate. It's gonna end this year anyway, and I look forward to it.

To certain people, kindly gtfo of my sight.

2011-04-16T10:32:00.001+08:00

Tsk, not in a good mood.

2011-04-08T19:54:00.001+08:00

Omg you were so captivating...lol jk, sorry about your face.

2011-03-30T17:50:00.002+08:00

你又想起某個夏天熱鬧海岸線
記憶中的那個少年驕傲的宣言

伸出雙手就能擁抱全世界
相信所有的夢想一定會實現
一切看起來都不會太遙遠
轉眼之間過幾年

輕浮的語言都已慢慢沈澱
即使難免會變得更加洗煉
我們不曾妥協

那是我們都回不去的從前
幸好還可以堅持當時的信念
世界嘗試改變
當初的那個少年

那是我們都回不去的從前
當你站在那個夏天的海岸線
我們還是心裡面
那個偏執的少年

你又想起某個夏天熱鬧海岸線
記憶中的那個少年驕傲的宣言

伸出雙手就能擁抱全世界
相信所有的夢想一定會實現
我們不曾妥協

那是我們都回不去的從前
幸好還可以堅持當時的信念
世界嘗試改變
當初的那個少年

那是我們都回不去的從前
當你站在那個夏天的海岸線
我們還是心裡面
那個偏執的少年

Much as I dislike school right now, I know after graduating I'd really really love to be back here studying again.

2011-03-27T18:26:00.003+08:00

Gone are the days. I should have known when it first started happening.

THE HISTORY OF LOVE

2011-03-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

18. MY MOTHER NEVER FELL OUT OF LOVE WITH MY FATHER

She’s kept her love for him as alive as the summer they first met. In order to do this, she’s turned life away. Sometimes she subsists for days on water and air. Being the only complex life-form to do this, she should have a species named after her. Once Uncle Julian told me how the sculptor and painter Alberto Giacometti said that sometimes to paint a head you have to give up the whole figure. To paint a leaf, you have to give up the whole landscape. It might seem that you’re limiting yourself at first, but after a while you realise that having a quarter-of-an-inch of something you have a better chance of holding on to a certain feeling of the universe than if you pretended to be doing the whole sky.

My mother did not choose a leaf or a head. She chose my father, and to hold on to a certain feeling, she sacrificed the world.

2011-03-23T20:01:00.004+08:00

I like reading. I wanna read. I want to sit in a corner at my house and spend my whole day reading and reading and reading and go into some other magical world. I want to read and cry and cry some more because a book is so beautiful and so angsty it's impossible not to feel anything. I want to read and feel my heart palpitating. I want to read and spend the other hours thinking about life again and how I want to live it because a book changed my mind and my perception of so many things.

But every day reality happens. Even if I have the time to read, I frankly do not have the heart to anymore.

2011-03-20T14:37:00.001+08:00

don't you feet get cold in the winter time
the sky won't snow and the sun won't shine

-- Desperado, The Eagles

2011-02-13T13:08:00.002+08:00

"Franz Kafka is Dead

He died in a tree from which he wouldn't come down. "Come down!" they cried to him. "Come down! Come down!" Silence filled the night, and the night filled the silence, while they waited for Kafka to speak. "I can't," he finally said, with a note of wistfulness. "Why?" they cried. Stars spilled across the black sky. "Because then you'll stop asking for me." The people whispered and nodded among themselves. They put their arms around each other, and touched their children's hair. They took off their hats and raised them to the small, sickly man with the ears of a strange animal, sitting in his black velvet suit in the dark tree. Then they turned and started for home under the canopy of leaves. Children were carried on their fathers' shoulders, sleepy from having been taken to see who wrote his books on pieces of bark he tore off the tree from which he refused to come down. In his delicate, beautiful, illegible handwriting. And they admired those books, and they admired his will and stamina. After all: who doesn't wish to make a spectacle of his loneliness? One by one families broke off with a good night and a squeeze of the hands, suddenly grateful for the company of neighbors. Doors closed to warm houses. Candles were lit in windows. Far off, in his perch in the trees , Kafka listened to it all: the rustle of the clothes being dropped to the floor, or lips fluttering along naked shoulders, beds creaking along the weight of tenderness. It all caught in the delicate pointed shells of his ears and rolled like pinballs through the great hall of his mind.

That night a freezing wind blew in. When the children wake up, they went to the window and found the world encased in ice. One child, the smallest, shrieked out in delight and her cry tore through the silence and exploded the ice of a giant oak tree. The world shone.

They found him frozen on the ground like a bird. It's said that when they put their ears to the shell of his ears, they could hear themselves."

-- Nicole Krauss, The History of Love

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Ah, couldn't help myself, sorry. After seeing the tumblr pic + quote I just went to flip through the book again, LOL.

2011-02-13T12:53:00.003+08:00

Uhm, I just realised today that Nicole Krauss is married to Jonathan Safran Foer. Oo-wow.

2011-02-07T17:35:00.003+08:00

Source: leilockheart

THE HISTORY OF LOVE.

I'd recognize these words anywhere.

2011-01-17T20:57:00.003+08:00

Just how much more.

梦见发着光的草原

一身伤回到很久以前

我选择不恨带着平静走远

醒来后夜还是长夜

2011-01-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

Science Fiction/Double Feature

Michael Rennie was ill
The Day the Earth Stood Still
But he told us where we stand
And Flash Gordon was there
In silver underwear
Claude Rains was The Invisible Man
Then something went wrong
For Fay Wray and King Kong
They got caught in a celluloid jam
Then at a deadly pace
It Came From Outer Space
And this is how the message ran...

I knew Leo G. Carroll
Was over a barrel
When Tarantula took to the hills
And I really got hot
When I saw Janette Scott
Fight a Triffid that spits poison and kills
Dana Andrews said prunes
Gave him the runes
And passing them used lots of skills
But When Worlds Collide
Said George Pal to his bride
I'm gonna give you some terrible thrills
Like a...

Science fiction (ooh ooh ooh) double feature
Doctor X (ooh ooh ooh) will build a creature
See androids fighting (ooh ooh ooh) Brad and Janet
Anne Francis stars in (ooh ooh ooh) Forbidden Planet
Wo oh oh oh oh oh
At the late night, double feature, picture show
I wanna go - Oh oh oh oh
To the late night, double feature, picture show
By R.K.O. - Wo oh oh oh
To the late night, double feature, picture show
In the back row - Oh oh oh oh
To the late night, double feature, picture show
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ROCKY HORRRRRRRROR! :D

2011-01-05T19:22:00.000+08:00

:)

Just started school two days ago and my January weekends are already packed.

2011-01-02T17:56:00.002+08:00

Hello 2011 ;) I don't usually come up with new year resolutions, but I guess there's always a first for everything. And 16 sounds like a pretty good age to start. Right? Right.

~~#1 Have sex because it's the legal age now.~~

...of course I'm kidding. But for now, I can't come up with anything constructive. I'll do it again when my brain is up to it.

2010-12-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

I've Never Been To Me 



Hey lady, you lady
cursing at your life
you're a discontented mother
and a regimented wife
I `ve no doubt
you dream about the things you never do
but I wish someone had a talk to me like I wanna talk to you

Oh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacher man
and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces
Because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...

Please lady please lady
don't just walk away
Cause I have this need to tell you
why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me
still living in your eyes
won't you share a part
of a weary heart that has lived a million lives

Oh, I've been to Nice and the isle of Greece
when I sipped champagne on a yacht
I moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo
and showed them what I've got
I've been undressed by kings
and I've seen some things that a woman ain't s'pose to see
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...

Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie
a fantasy we created about people and places
as we like them to be
but you know what truth is?
it's that little baby you're holding
and it's that man you fought with this morning
the same one you are gonna make love to tonight
that's truth that's love

Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children
that might have made me complete
but I, I took the sweet life
I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I spent my life exploring
the subtle whoring
that costs too much to be free
hey lady I've been to paradise
but I've never been to me...

I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...
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2010-11-29T15:58:00.002+08:00

Next year July! Part 2 of Deathly Hallows. The last film ever of the Harry Potter series :( Gosh the people working behind the scenes must be so proud. Good lord, I'd be proud even if I were just delivering meals or something.

I vaguely still remember the day my dad brought our whole family to the cinema to watch The Sorcerer's Stone. I'm glad I read/followed the Harry Potter series (books and movies, primarily books though, though the movie brought me in) once I was old enough to. Philosopher's Stone came out when we were 2 years old so it's not like I could read it right after it came out right. RIGHT?

I've been wondering, if Harry Potter films will have remakes (do I hear Hollywood) like, 20 years down the road . I mean it seems quite logical - after all many films have been remade, and teens/the younger generations usually like the remade versions because we've never seen the original ones.

Honestly? It would piss me off to imagine a person thinking three other people played Harry Hermione and Ron better than Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint. As a matter of fact, it applies to any other characters. I will never acknowledge another Harry Potter cast HAHAHA.

Meh, I'm extremely close-minded to things I grow up with. So sue me.

(I feel compelled to say this but I don't know who plays Dumbledore because I never really notice who have been behind all that beard...didn't even notice the change from the first to second movie.)

2010-11-25T11:54:00.002+08:00

I've seen it so many times, watched them, witnessed every important moment. And then I thought, I was familiar with it. I could read it, anticipate it. Possibly stop it.

Then it happens again and again, I do things against my plan. I would call it a momentary lapse in any sense of consequence I have left, but then again, it was one too many moments.

Until today, however, I still think it was the lack of willpower. The way I don't follow through my plan, or through anything.

2010-11-20T00:07:00.001+08:00

I lost a lot this year, and I'm trying all I can to find them back. But certain things - they're just gone forever once lost.

2010-11-19T22:08:00.001+08:00

“We laughed and laughed, together and separately, out loud and silently, we were determined to ignore whatever needed to be ignored, to build a new world from nothing if nothing in our world could be salvaged, it was one of the best days of my life, a day during which I lived my life and didn’t think about my life at all.”

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

2010-11-09T23:30:00.003+08:00

I have asked myself the same question, and each time I can't bring myself to answer.

2010-11-04T20:53:00.002+08:00

Tyger! Tyger! burning bright,
In the forests of the night;
What immortal hand or eye,
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

William Blake

2010-11-01T21:24:00.001+08:00

Jessie

From a phone booth in Vegas, Jessie calls at 5 A.M.
to tell me how she's tired of all of them.
She says, "Baby, I've been thinking 'bout a trailer by the sea.
We could go to Mexico... you, the cat and me.
We'll drink tequila and look for sea shells.
Now, doesn't that sound sweet?"
Oh, Jessie, you always do this every time
I get back on my feet.

Jessie paint your pictures 'bout how it's gonna be.
By now I should know better, your dreams are never free.
But tell me all about our little trailer by the sea;
Jessie you can always sell any dream to me.
Oh, Jessie, you can always sell any dream to me.

She asks me how the cat's been.
I say, "Moses he's just fine
but he used to think about you all the time.
We finally took your pictures down off the wall.
Oh, Jessie, how do you always seem
to know just when to call?"
She says, "Get your stuff together.
Bring Moses and drive real fast."
And who knows, maybe this time things'll turn out just the way you planned.

Jessie paint your pictures 'bout how it's gonna be.
By now I should know better, your dreams are never free.
But tell me all about our little trailer by the sea;
Jessie you can always sell any dream to me.
Oh, Jessie, you can always sell any dream to me.

-

I'm pretty certain I repost lyrics of a few songs every now and then, but I don't think it matters.

2010-10-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

For every miscalculation you think you see there have been a hundred things that I have gotten right no one knows.

- Grey's Anatomy

2010-10-29T19:16:00.001+08:00

If it doesn't turn out well (God forbids) I only have myself to blame. Serves me right. Damn!

2010-10-27T21:25:00.002+08:00

Where, where, where can I say things?

2010-10-17T12:45:00.001+08:00

2010-10-13T19:00:00.002+08:00

Oh wow I realised I have stopped blogging about my life, almost completely hahahaha. Suddenly remembered back then in primary school my posts were riduculously wordy I have no idea how I churned all those out, I mean. How could I possibly remember so much details. Okay fine, I still remember very clearly what I did the whole day but well, lost the patience to type so much HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, completely given up on this year hahahaha. Shall work hard next year.

2010-10-08T23:37:00.002+08:00

Teachers, who jeopardize students' future/education for their careers. What do you call them?

This is beyond my understanding of any kind. Really.

2010-09-29T21:57:00.001+08:00

Either there's something wrong with me or Mediacorp has the ability to make people like antagonists more than protagonists. Don't ask why I'm watching TV shows, much less Mediacorp shows -.-

2010-09-25T21:32:00.005+08:00

Overwhelmed.

2010-09-17T22:29:00.001+08:00

After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here’s what I’ve decided: There’s no such thing as a grown-up.
We move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own. But the basic insecurities, the basic fears, and all those old wounds just grow up with us. And just when we think that life and circumstance have forced us to truly, once and for all, become an adult… your mother, says something… like that. Or worse, something like that.

We get bigger, we get taller, we get older. But, for the most part, we’re still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in.

I’ve heard that it’s possible to grow up. I’ve just never met anyone who’s actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don’t go our way.

We whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark. We look for comfort where we can find it. And we hope… against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope... - Grey's Anatomy

2010-09-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

Suhui is going to blog in the third person's point of view right now because she has nothing else better to do. Wrong, actually she has. And that better thing is to look through her trigo notes and finish the questions she did not do in class. And while she's at it, she should really start revising for the upcoming exam.

So what is she here for? Never mind that now. Now, she feels thirsty, and wants to drink, but is kinda lazy to get a drink.

Okay, at this moment, she is starting to realize she doesn't make much sense, and reckons she's better off sleeping, then waking up to make sense.

She urges whoever is reading this to stop reading. But it doesn't matter, because the post is ending. Have you read till here?

2010-09-04T11:25:00.001+08:00

No there's no making sense of it
Every way I go I'm bound to lose.

- Too Much Love Will Kill You, Queen

2010-08-29T20:41:00.002+08:00

I wish my art was good, then I could draw. Because right now, words cannot express me.

2010-08-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

Even if I'm saved, a part of me will never come back.

2010-08-18T22:30:00.001+08:00

"The early bird catches the worm; a stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to ‘seize the day'. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying." - Grey's Anatomy

2010-08-12T21:13:00.003+08:00

We often don't remember when it is the last time we do something, because we always seem to think we have more time.

2010-08-10T22:51:00.001+08:00

I like myself. I like myself a lot.

2010-08-10T12:48:00.001+08:00

It doesn't hurt, it just kind of sucks. And hurts.

2010-08-07T23:09:00.004+08:00

I can pretend to be unknowing, but that does not mean I am.

2010-08-03T21:04:00.001+08:00

Today Has Been Okay

Friends tell me it's spring
My window show the same
Without you here the seasons pass me by
I know you were not new
That loved like me and you
All the same I miss you
Today has been ok
Today has been ok

The preacher lost his son
He's known by all in town
He found him with another son of God
Feeding on the prayer
Nevermind what God said
But love had lost its cause
And I thought today had been ok
Today has been ok
Today has been ok

Wind has burned your skin
The lovely air so thin
The salty water's underneath your feet
No one's gone in vain
Here is where you'll stay
'Cause life has been insane but
Today has been ok
Today has been ok
Today has been ok
Today has been ok

2010-07-30T22:11:00.002+08:00

Because National Day is nearing, I thought it'd be worth mentioning - all these years celebrating National Day by singing songs in schools, the only few that I can remember are We Will Get There, Where I Belong and Home. The later ones kinda come and go, like when August 9 is nearing you hear it everywhere after that you forget all about its existence.

And oh, Reach Out for the Skies because of the easy-to-hit-whoever-standing-next-to-you dance steps.

For this is where I know it's home.

2010-07-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

My life is getting boring.

2010-07-21T20:32:00.003+08:00

Screw them (whoever they are) for taking my whole weekend away. Saturday + Sunday. And I have bio theory (HUMAN TRANSPORT and excretion), Physics and Chem SPA (chem is bloody QA too mind you) that week.

No amount of words can express how pissed off I am. Seriously just...damnit. We all have a life outside CCA so stop acting like we don't. And school > CCA, and it's not like whatever we're doing for the latter is any life-and-death matter, or anything important, or useful, or necessary. AND it is from 0745 to 1930. It's like what, 12 hours.

I'm going off.

Okay it's cancelled. I'm feeling fine and I'm gonna go study. Seeya.

2010-07-19T23:43:00.004+08:00

Seriously. 0745 to 1930 on a goddamn Sunday. And CCA on Saturday. And possibly Friday.
____

Just for record's sake, I'm a pathetic student who has no self-control.

2010-07-14T17:27:00.001+08:00

"Ahahaha, oh you funny vet."

Guess which is my favourite character.

2010-07-14T15:40:00.002+08:00

We exist for people who do not care.

2010-07-12T19:55:00.005+08:00

Mono Lisa at the Lourve Museum HAHAHAHAHA. It's tiny.

Okay I have dying to take up French lessons since don't know when. Found the place to, but it's far and expensive. Far, meaning I either have to sacrifice my weekends or I'll have to manage my time properly. Expensive meaning...well that's pretty straightforward. I think far doesn't affect me much because it by right has only 8 lessons or so?

If I really want lessons I would have to go sign up and such. I don't think my mum is very supportive regarding that though. I have been thinking about it since I quit French.

Btw speaking of this I remembered arguing with Carson and Valerie over the use of "quitted". When I Google-ed it I realized the whole world is in as much of a dilemma as me. You know, like there are people who says "quitted" is commonly used in England, while "quit" as past tense is usually used in America. THEN pops out statements which claimed "quitted" is American English and "quit" is Britain. And then comes along another stand which states "quitted" is used as past tense for when the word means to leave. Then there're people who insisted no such word existed.

That means that I'm not wrong! (well I'm not right either but that's not the point) Yes I do not like being wrong, just like you.

Whatever, language.

Anyway, I kept dreaming of living in Paris! Ugh, I like Europe, all the old buildings!! MAGNIFICENT. The easiest way to live in a country (without worrying about stuff like citizenship blah) is to either study there or work there. With my current results, I see my future bleak, like er sitting at a tiny desk in a random office doing admin stuff. And studying there is out of the question obviously HAHAHA!!

Okay quit dreaming and I should get off the computer to have my dinner then straight to work immediately damn it's already 8.40PM.

Let's end off with a picture.

That was two, but whatever. The pictures are small! Did I forgot to adjust? Mm.

2010-07-10T23:39:00.001+08:00

It came upon a midnight clear

It came upon the midnight clear,
That glorious song of old,
From angels bending near the earth,
To touch their harps of gold:
"Peace on the earth, goodwill to men
From heavens all gracious King!"
The world in solemn stillness lay
To hear the angels sing.

Still through the cloven skies they come,
With peaceful wings unfurled;
And still their heavenly music floats
O'er all the weary world:
Above its sad and lowly plains
They bend on hovering wing,
And ever o'er its Babel sounds
The blessed angels sing.

O ye beneath life's crushing load,
Whose forms are bending low,
Who toil along the climbing way
With painful steps and slow;
Look now, for glad and golden hours
Come swiftly on the wing;
Oh rest beside the weary road
And hear the angels sing.

For lo! the days are hastening on,
By prophets seen of old,
When with the ever-circling years
Shall come the time foretold,
When the new heaven and earth shall own
The Prince of Peace, their King,
And the whole world send back the song
Which now the angels sing.

Stupid blogger, but nvm I finally got this up. I am well aware it is not Christmas now, nor is it actually near Christmas. But that doesn't matter. At all.

2010-07-08T22:30:00.003+08:00

Poof. I don't trust the internet.

2010-07-04T00:41:00.003+08:00

I'm such a failure I'm rewatching GA (<--main point) and wondering why the hell are the women always weak in whatever drama?! Seriously? SERIOUSLY?

2010-06-28T20:03:00.002+08:00

"If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

I shall not watch Season 6 of Grey's Anatomy just in case I run out of things to do during the holidays (that's never gonna happen because I have a whole list of things to do but never mind me). Plus Season 7 is gonna come out this year September and I don't want to watch episode by episode lol so I'm hoping I can keep myself occupied with Season 6 while Season 7 is on air. That's why I shouldn't watch it and I'm going to convince myself.

Except I have already started.

So much for talking, right? Never mind, school is here to save the day.

I shall MASTER LOGARITHM. AND LEARN TO LOVE MATH BECAUSE IT IS DOUBLE WEIGHTAGE.

On a lighter note,

"GOAAAAAAAL!!!"

I know, I know, I seriously do know that already.

2010-06-20T19:58:00.001+08:00

Whoo I'm finally home.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE! :D

2010-06-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA I feel like a psychic because I know what is happening right now as well as what is going to happen.

Oh it's so much fun.

2010-06-10T14:51:00.001+08:00

Jonathan Groff sang Bohemian Rhapsody on Glee.

2010-06-08T21:11:00.001+08:00

I'm trying to watch IP Man now hahahahaha.

Gosh I can't even watch a movie with the computer -_- I get so distracted LOL.

2010-06-06T21:56:00.001+08:00

What a bitch post I've just written HAHAHA.

2010-06-06T21:43:00.002+08:00

Don't let Deathly Hallows go 3D or I will go insane. I know I can choose to not watch in 3D but well.

Stop 3D-ing everything, it is only fresh and interesting for cartoons because just in case the media hasn't noticed, I AM seeing plants and trees and buildings and humans everyday, and I don't need alphabets jumping out at me when I'm reading the newspaper (the last time I read about it, which was quite long actually, it is only for the advertisement oh gosh talk about redundant but who is to say making articles 3D won't happen?).

I'll admit 3D video games sounds fun. But that's just like cartoons because we've been seeing those 2D all our lives.

I look forward to Toy Story 3 HAHA oh am I childish or what because I think Toy Story 2 wasn't even from our time (childhood times?). No I am not what.

2010-06-06T18:25:00.000+08:00

Absence.

What do you make of it?

2010-05-31T23:36:00.000+08:00

I'm back but I'll post in detail some day later. So much photos (coughs, of who I wonder) to post but most likely I'll be too lazy to do so.

Come to think of it, that post "in detail" might never come.

2010-05-22T17:02:00.001+08:00

Was playing the pac man thing on Google until I forgot what I wanted to search -_- haiya that thing is so distracting HAHAHAHA.

2010-05-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

Sigh, this is getting bad. I'm sleepy even though I took a nap this afternoon.

...you know, now that I counted the hours that I've slept this afternoon I realized they aren't a lot - not even an hour.

So that explains why I'm sleepy. Can't be bothered to pack anymore. And I haven't studied for physics prac. To hell with it, I'll be stuck at 11/20 anyway -_- My practicals have never went past that mark.

I know, I'll study it anyway. Just for the fun of it. No wait I don't think it's fun. Oh Friday. CCA tomorrow.

And public duty on Saturday (until 9.30PM, or so they say). I'm going to die because I've so much things to do and buy for the GPP trip and - God forbid it happens - I cannot stop fearing sleeping in on Sunday morning.

2010-05-18T21:57:00.002+08:00

Haiyaaaaa, just came back from the GPP briefing not long ago. I don't feel like going for it all of a sudden! Rather get stuck in Singapore attending some Financial course or something (but when I look at the itinerary there's like team-building activities for...goddamn long). Whatever the case is, I can't back out anymore hahaha.

Don't look forward to the things we have to do AFTER coming back from the trip omg. I signed up to play, unfortunately hahaha. Ah darn, but who didn't >)

Okay. My LA is so ridiculously screwed I'm gonna get retained at the end of the year because I cannot get B4 for English. Thank you essay outline test, for letting me almost fail LA by occupying such high percentage (in term 1 but whaevaaaaaar) and thank you compre for being so darn hard that so many people failed you across the whole level.

Ah, my 感恩之心.

Oka nvm hahaha happy with Chemistry, glad that I didn't fail Physics and very very very disappointed with Chinese sigh. I knew something is going to go wrong with my Mid-year paper when I got A2 last term -_- (oh will that mean it's gonna come back in term 3? The A2 I mean 8D) Ah nvm B3 still can get promoted hahaha.

I'm tired, and I'm running tomorrow omg to run I'm gonna be slow like a snail! Glad that I'm not in Frisbee though because I can't play my way out of a paper bag. Prefer ball games -_-

2010-05-17T22:41:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling quite happy (happy, happy!) even though it is a Monday and a lot of things that has happened will get no one happy. I'm going to cheer myself up even more by going to sleep right now, HA.

But no, because I was to lazy to pack my CCA stuff when I received the SMS I'm now going to glumly pack them and go to sleep.

Yes I've changed my blogskin and I don't quite like black (makes everything look emo -_-) but well. Till I find a more suitable blogskin for my blog.

Like breaking an unspoken rule.

2010-05-16T12:37:00.003+08:00

Disappointment.

2010-05-13T23:34:00.002+08:00

So many words get lost. They leave the mouths and lose their courage, wandering aimlessly until they are swept into the gutter like dead leaves.

-Nicole Krauss

Re-read The History of Love, and I didn't regret buying that book despite it being quite expensive and that I have read it at least twice from the library.

That line says all I have to say, or rather, all that I didn't.

距离产生美。

2010-05-13T20:04:00.002+08:00

Aiya I'm so sick of this blogskin hahaha seached for one yesterday but couldn't find one that I liked sigh. I'm into blogskins with pictures now >) I know I used to like picture-less but simple ones. I liked some of the pictures but didn't like the overall feel.

Ah exam are over! :D I'm losing inspiration to blog because I am sick of the blogskin hahahah.

2010-05-08T00:30:00.001+08:00

Because I hate accusations more than anything. I can't help it.
No one tells me how I feel.

2010-05-07T20:15:00.003+08:00

I think I'm weird because I'm getting a kick out of staying at unearthly hours studying. Yes I do like (quite) the new exam system despite feeling ~!@#$%^& for weeks.

Long posts ftw.

2010-05-03T16:36:00.003+08:00

Never mind.

2010-05-01T12:08:00.002+08:00

Me me me me me me me me me me me me.

This post is all about me.

Do you get it?

2010-04-29T17:50:00.000+08:00

Seems that my long posts are very well received!! Thank you for your overwhelming support for my life, sniff.

2010-04-23T23:52:00.002+08:00

I stepped in their shoes, I imagined their lives.

For this is the only way I feel alive.

2010-04-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

Everytime I see "长得抱歉" I cannot help but laugh laugh non-stop -_- I just think that description is so hilarious.

2010-04-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

But don't worry - I am not you.

2010-04-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

Is the feeling worse when someone disappoints you, or when you know you've disappointed someone?

2010-04-17T19:00:00.001+08:00

I have a lot of things I want to talk about but this whole copying and pasting the letter a thing is so irritating T______T

*refuses to blog*

2010-04-14T23:01:00.002+08:00

Way to go for sensitivity!! :D post overwhelmed with sarcasm.

2010-04-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

I thought I'd call it fate.

2010-04-11T17:50:00.002+08:00

I'm getting really sick of the Arial font loooooool. The words are. Tiny. I am sick of blogger, lol, wanna move back to wordpress, but I don't want. Makes any sense?

I gave up studying Math. I am dead for midyears. I know it.

I'm back to posting random sentences and call them a post. Oh yes. Oh yes.

2010-04-07T17:07:00.004+08:00

And I'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes

I'd never get tired of quoting the lyrics. The song wouldn't be half as good without the lyrics. I'm sure at some point in our lives we will ask that question to people whose face you get sick of seeing now. Not literal - just an expression.

I'm excited for my sister's A levels, and weirdly it's not quite near yet. I'm excited for her, you know, getting into University and stuff. All right I admit, it's not much about the A levels, but the whole University thing.

And that gets me thinking about my turn in 3 years' time. And oh, I'm worried about my O level Higher Chinese because as much as my Chinese has never been consistently A (in secondary school), I don't want a goddamn B on my A level cert for Chinese (and just Chinese LOL).

Good gracious I'm thinking about A level right now. But oh, I'll be frank with you - I've even been thinking about my future a lot these days.

So here you go; some of my (rather abstract) thoughts that I don't like to share, but eventually did so anyway.

Jessie paint your pictures 'bout how it's gonna be.
By now I should know better, your dreams are never free.
But tell me all about our little trailer by the sea;
Jessie you can always sell any dream to me.
Oh, Jessie, you can always sell any dream to me.

Hadn't like this song at first hear, but I guess it grows on you. (but if you know me you'll know it's because of the singer, in the video, that is)
You can always sell any dream to me.

2010-04-02T22:22:00.004+08:00

Oh yaaaaay I love long weekends, not to mention surprisingly there isn't much homework this time haaaa! >) jealous jealous jealous? >) I like evil smileys hahaha >) >) >) I mean, DON'T THEY JUST LOOK EVIL?

Pointless. Okay anyway I think I'd better start revising Kinematics soon 'cuz I'm still hopelessly clueless about it and I bet there's gonna be a class test soon. Either way midyears are gonna be in around week 7 or 8? I don't care I'm gonna call it the midyear tests since the weightage is the same anyway -.- It's so...ridiculous. Can't even lower the percentage by like, I dunno. 5%? So now midyears are like --> school + CCA + homework + revise half a year's topics + other commitments as opposed to last year's --> no CCA + going home to revise after exam + no homework + no school.

And Jasmine says the test are gonna be on Wednesdays so wth the only we get to go home early they're having the test !@#$%^ doesn't it sound like another term of sleepless months.

Crap T______T I'm so sick of my blogskin 'cuz I don't like the Arial font now HAHAHA I like Times New Roman and I hate it when we're supposed to print something out in Arial font LOOOOL love the physics project report 'cuz it's printed in TNR and there're pages after pages so it looks good >) like our geog project last year! Omg printed out lots of pages and I feel a sense of accomplishment just by flipping through the pages hahaha. Anyway surveys were like all made up zzz think I'll just die for PW in year 5 hahaha.

Reminded of CID =_= my phone is vibrating non-stop lol I wanna change blogskin! Think I used too much of ~!@#$% in this post hahaha.

P.S. Omg wtf I came across Billy Joel's We Didn't Start The Fire, and I was like this song is so familiar until I realized this is the song used for the "We Live in Singapura" video that was showed to us a gazillion times in school. -.-

2010-03-28T23:21:00.002+08:00

All right before the day ends allow me to give a feeble attempt at a good, coherent post.

Maybe a summary of last week? All right so basically I don't really remember anything much about last week except that I fell asleep accidentally 3 days out of the 5 weekdays. I left the lights and fans on and got chided by my parents countless of time. But that's not the main point. I think I woke up and forgot everything that happened the day before - including how I went to sleep and what I was doing before I slept AND most importantly I didn't know what I was supposed to do after I opened my eyes.

Okay that sounded a tad bit retarded but seriously it was how it was like. Wake up, stone for a few minutes and then OH I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE DOING HISTORY and then OH I FELL ASLEEP and also OH CRAP THE LIGHTS AND FAN, and of course OH SHIT IT'S TIME FOR SCHOOL AGAIN.

And now another new week is going to come again. *sleeps*

Also I realised I have been thinking about June holidays (the upcoming one of course) even on Monday, the first day of school. Seriously ~!@#$%^& a clock somewhere in my brain is not right at all. And oh screw physics assignment 'cuz I don't know how to do it.

Okay I need to complete that fast. And edit my individual task. Sheesh all the trouble physics has been bringing me since holidays.

2010-03-25T19:14:00.002+08:00

Been there, done that.

2010-03-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

Like vapour among clouds...who's gonna notice?

Omg I wanted to blog then I saw this then then then...I don't feel like blogging -.- All right this is terribly unsuccessful. The post, I mean. Okay holidays passed just like that and I'm really pissed at all the homework needed to be done. I dozed off halfway while doing history essay on a Sunday night (or Monday morning actually -.-) and left the lights and fans on omg crap hahaha. Uh okay so I didn't doze off, but I completely fell asleep.

New timetable is so screwed (only get to go home early on one day ~!@#$%^&*). Dismissed at 1.30PM on Friday but jeez what is the point it's a CCA day! Plus it's at the expense of being dismissed late on Tuesday 'cuz teacher's timetable clash ugh speaking of History (okay maybe I didn't speak about it) I'm liking lessons less 'cuz of the I dunno, new teacher? Lots of awkward silences where she looks at us and we stare back at her.

Omg history test on Friday, physics project and individual task due on Friday too this is mad I've been dreaming about sleeping at 10PM since dunno when and well apparently my dream is never going to come true zzz oh sidetrack a while, I haven't switched the aircon on for a very long time hahaha okay post is getting pointless.

Sigh lots of controversial things I wanna blog about but then decided against it for the most obvious reasons.

Okay I'm unhappy with the length of this post because I like lengthy and wordy posts >) ooo aaaaaaah Jiahui's birthday tomorrow whoooooo and uhm omg I think I should go back to my bio assignment and physics individual task but omg don't feel like doing homework whoo tomorrow chinese teacher not around HAHAHAHHA awesome fantastic terrrrrrrrrrrific! Btw the physics project sucks.

Note: Post in no chronological order.

2010-03-15T20:06:00.002+08:00

AHAHAHAH UG CAMP PASSED! It was pretty fine actually...wasn't what I expected loooool can't really use slack to describe it after going through ANCO camp -.- that was the slackest training camp ever (not that I actually attended any leisure camps before OH P5 CAMP!) , aside from the hike hahahaha.

Yes. The main point of my post. Is that.

THE SCHOOL HAD BETTER LET US GO FOR OBS !@#$%^&*

WHY is our level so unfortunate. The West Malaysia trip was taken away from us (and no replacement ha-ha), and daaaaaaarn. They'd better let us go for OBS.

And, why can't the school just bloody let us know what is going to happen to us next year. Will a what, 15 min talk kill them? I still wanna learn my History btw ugh I'm dying to know what we're gonna do next year but no I think we'll know it in January next year earliest.

2010-03-06T22:07:00.008+08:00

9 weeks down, 31 more to go.

Yaaaay my two favourite duets in Glee haaaaah.

Okay, omg I hate that main character in Glee (that high school dude who can't sing his way out of a paper bag YET ironically is the male character who can sing best). Gosh, have I said it before? Okay nvm I have been waiting patiently (all right scratch that) since last year for Glee to come back on air but it will only do so in April and that'd mean I have to go through March first T_T

I can't stand school life all I want to do is to sit at home and watch TV and most importantly $$ to drop straight onto my lap whilst doing so.

Too idealistic, no?

For a brief moment, it felt like it was all over.

2010-03-03T20:58:00.001+08:00

Don't ask me if I had ever foresee that, because I don't want to answer.

2010-02-19T21:19:00.003+08:00

7th week down, 33 more to go.

Of all the numerous facebook groups I joined or became fans of, LOL, there's one I remembered (who remembers all the countless groups?!), something along the lines of "friends you don't talk to often but care about".

I wonder if anyone remembers Meng Di...? She used to be in the same class as us in pri sch up till pri 4 or 5? She skipped a level I remember, and left in the second semester. I think she left us in P5. She and I used to be rather close...if I didn't remember wrongly hahaha. I do recall going to her house after school (and we even bought bubbletea before that HAHA). Y'know I think I still remember how her house looks like. I think it's amazing how much I remember. Maybe you don't know but occasionally I still wonder how she's doing HAHA. It's quite I dunno...saddening? That we probably wouldn't know each other if we met on the streets haha. That said, I still remember how she looks like. It's just that we've lost contact and it will feel weird if I ever meet her again because I really kinda forgot what we always talked about. Ah well, she was my close friend.

Am I rambling incohorently here? =X

2010-02-11T22:09:00.003+08:00

我要堕落我怕谁?

Tests were disastrous. Everyone seemed to do fine except me.

LA essay outline test.
It was terrible. The most terrible LA test ever, even the compre wasn't that bad. I didn't write the second question, on discussing trends, because I let's be frank I don't really know how to define trends. Not that I know what this means as well, "Discuss the importance of image to today's popular culture." I really had no idea what both questions wanted us to "discuss". I ended up writing the image question and regretted it. Madly. I was writing on how image can bring success to popular culture until I reread the question and wondered if it meant if popular culture needed image, and why. Anyway, I only had 2 points. And lousy supporting details. Plus I totally do not get the whole point form thing. And topic sentence. I have never done an outline for any essays in my entire life for one simple reason - I can't do a proper one. And so, you can tell how well I've done for the essay outline test.

Chem test.
Ha, just when I thought nothing could be worse than that LA test I had on the previous day. I have been trying to study chem for the past few days but damn I really couldn't get anything into my mind. Everyone did fine with the test, well at least they completed it, or left a little bit. I know I screwed that test up. My equations were all ridiculously screwed, I wrote Ammonia as NH4 and thought oxide ion was 1-, but couldn't change it because there was no time.

2010-02-05T21:59:00.002+08:00

One more week down, 35 more to go.

Wow I survived about one month one week of school life. Ah, I am getting more and more ~!@#$%^& because March is coming soon. First and foremost there's UG camp. It's the third time but frankly you never get used to things like these. Ah well. I'll blog in detail uh, some day. Haven't finish my History assignment and have yet to finish studying for chem test.

Where are you now

To my favorite teacher
told me never give up
To my 5th grade crush
who I thought I really loved
To the guys I missed
And the girls we kissed,
where are you now?

To my ex best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands
and sing-alongs in my car
To the face I see
In my memories,
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinkin of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry I screwed it up
To the ones I loved,
Didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinkin of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And it means we'll never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
people change but I know
I won't forget you

Woah oh
woah oh
oh ohh

To the ones who cared
Who were there from the start
To the love that left
took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
I never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinkin' of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am now

If it wasn't for you
I would be nothing
Where are you now?

2010-02-03T20:34:00.002+08:00

You will, trust me, it's just a matter of time.

Okay I totally do not understand Math lessons (I insist you do not speak of my playing tic-tac-toe with Siying) and Physics lessons. LA is just plain boring and a pain in the neck. Every lesson is like group work group work presentation presentation presentation and moooooreeeeee presentations! :D had I known I'd have said video-watching is what makes a lesson interesting at the start of the year -.- just because y'know, group works/activities are SO convenient to suggest.

2010-01-31T18:14:00.002+08:00

4th week just passed, another 36 more to go.

UGH. Only one twelfth of the weeks passed. Pathetic isn't it.

Maybe I should be doing my journal entry now but gaaaaah I don't know how to do lol. Went to the library today and got at least my bio assignment and zao ju done. And had fun drawing on Shichun's physics assignment >)

But I swear my drawings are so cute :D

2010-01-24T21:46:00.004+08:00

Another week down, 37 more to go.

One random thing would be that I should never have listened to Danny Gokey's version of Endless Love.

P.S I think I've lost the ability to blog about my life and...you should be agreeing if you're a primary school friend or if you've read my archives. WHICH I THINK YOU SHOULD NOT. Just in case you die of overwhelming stupidity shoved into your face. I kid you not.

2010-01-21T20:12:00.003+08:00

Had he communicated properly with us, I'd say he's a good principal but no, I can't bring myself to say something beyond "I can get where he's coming from but(...~!@#$%^)". The way speaks give no room for possibilities - whatever he says is right and no there'll be no need for any intelligent discussion.

All right, I am in desperate need of some holiday. I don't understand physics, and my brain's dead during math and like always, I feel like sleeping in LA. Since Primary 1 I have the tendency to not feel awake in English classes -.- guess why.

2010-01-17T19:39:00.003+08:00

2nd week over, 38 more to go.

I can't do my bio with my textbook plus notes with me. Omg this sucks and I don't understand what the teacher is trying to teach during physics, and I (hope) I'm not the only one -.- And omg Mr Ng is quite cute hahaha even though he mumbles to the whiteboard and rushes through the lesson T_T and his favourite line, "Do you understand or not!!"

HAHAHAHA.

OMG tomorrow Monday, which means I have all three sciences wth. Chem test is going to suck mad omg I totally forgot about Year 2 stuff (especially the chemical bonding crap and balancing equations and and basically everything). And Math test, got a bad feeling I'm going to be stuck in remedial for the rest of my life. And compre test, it's boring and I can't score so I hate it lol.

Okay that pretty much sums up how school has been.

2010-01-15T22:46:00.002+08:00

UGH.

I've been wondering about these for a very very long time. Is anti pronounced as "an-ti" from "tie" or is it pronounced "an-tee"? And is aftermath pronounced as "aftermath" or "after-math"? I've always been used to aftermath!! Had been more used to an-tee but got used to both eventually, even though when I speak I guess I use an-tee more frequently.

Okay I know, what the heck.

In the night I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told

I hope the school isn't making us choose subjects again this year, or change classes again. How is the 3-3 thing going to work now?! Squeeze 2 years of work into 1 and the other 2 years of work sparingly taught within 3? Though frankly I don't think anyone would mind the latter (in fact it sounds heavenly) but...you get the point.

Besides, I wouldn't know what to pick >(

Er, that lyrics part was just because that song is stuck in my head.

2010-01-09T13:42:00.002+08:00

First week gone. 39 more to go.

I can die.